ARGH!!!

I hate it when I have some much going on in my head and I just want to write it down but nothing comes out. I have some much I want to say and express but every time I try to write nothing happens, I draw a blank and feel like I want to bang my head against the wall. I thought if I relieved my stress by writing on here then I may release every thing in my head.

I found the other week that I would be somewhere or doing something and all these feels and emotions I have inside wanted to come out but I was no where near any paper or a computer and couldn't put my thoughts onto paper, and then they left me by the time I got some paper. I'm going to be 21 soon, not until October, and I realised what I want in life, I just want to be happy and have what I want. That isn't really selfish if you think about it, its my life and I want what will make me happy. I just want a life which consists of, a career (I have that already, TICK), a house that I can make a home with my man in it and when the time is ready a family (not quite ready yet).

Ah well all good things come to those who wait I guess